He was extremely handsome, articulate, smart, friendly, and kind.
One day, when he was only 31 years old, he decided that he could not overcome a drug addiction to cocaine. So, he planned out his very last day.
He decided to start his car that was parked in his garage, sit in the backseat, and let the fumes put him to sleep….forever.
The story goes that his worldly, first wife, who was 8 years his senior, had introduced him to the drug and immediately, he was hooked. After several stints in rehab, he ended up failing the random drug test given at the fire station where he worked.
He had divorced and remarried. But, his second wife, unable to watch his demise, left him.
Even the Sunday nights on the porch or in the living room at my grandparents’ house, having Bible study with my grandfather and neighborhood friends, did not comfort him. He found no solace in anyone or anything.
A substance controlled his every thought throughout the day. He could not contain it. He could not make it stop. Even when he was not “on it”, he thought about it. He said he could even taste it.
He shared his anguish in letters that he mailed the day he decided that he could not make it here on Earth another day.
He made a decision, a decision based upon what he believed to be true.
As I write this, I see even more clearly why I wanted to share this personal story with you.
You see, it doesn’t matter what kind of challenges you face in this thing called life.
At the end of the day, it is all about what YOU believe.
It’s about what you believe when you do not “feel” like God is there.
It’s about what you believe when you look in the mirror.
It’s about what you believe when you are all alone with no background noise from your television or Pandora’s music on your phone.
Whatever it is in life that you are unable to face….and whatever it is in life that you are unable to overcome….it is so because for some reason, deep down inside, you believe you can’t.
That is why it is so important for you to protect your mind, to guard it fiercely. The influences upon it ultimately control the way you think and how you think controls how you act or fail to act.
Other people may think the world of you and see so much giftedness in you. But, if you do not believe it is there, how can it truly manifest?
Even God, himself, declares throughout His Word, how incredibly special you are to Him, but if you do not believe it, how can you walk in it?
Your belief system plays a critical role in your perspective and if it is not “programmed” by the Word, it will fail you.
Listen, the one thing I want you to leave this post understanding is that there will be times when you feel like having a “pity party.” (Shoot, I had one for a couple of hours, yesterday.)
There will be times when you naturally focus on what is wrong in your life and what has not happened for you, and what you have not accomplished according to your self-imposed timeline; but, those are the times when you can pull from your reserve tank—your solid, stable, divine belief system—and put yourself in check.
Sometimes, you have to check yourself before you “wreck” yourself. (Yes, if you remember that phrase from the 80’s, it still holds true.)
But, on a serious note, you have to pull from a place where your belief system is not based on you and your efforts or you and your “failures”, but it is based upon the Word of God.
I wish my uncle had known this.
I wish he had understood how valuable he was and how much he had to offer us here in the Earth realm.
Unfortunately, he did not. He allowed the enemy to tap into his belief system and convince him that he could not go on. That truly breaks my heart.
My question for you is:
What is not happening in your life because YOU believe YOU can’t?
How long are you willing to allow that to last?
….Being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6 NIV
I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13 NIV